So, at the end of the school year, I was laid off. This really took me for a loop! Here I am pregnant, Corey's still in school, etc. We had originally wanted to wait till this summer to become pregnant. Our thinking - get Corey out of school and into a good job, have the due date be near the end of the school year... I guess God had other plans, and I eventually came around. I was reading one of my pregnancy books the other day and it was saying how many woman may initially have not wanted to become pregnant at the time, but then are secretly glad that it has finally happened. I think this was me. In my head, I was being logical about the timing, but I had been obsessing about babies and becoming pregnant for awhile. So anyway... back to my layoff. With the layoff comes the discontinuation of insurance...August 31. Great! My insurance won't even cover me through the delivery! And Cobra is $845/month! So, our option - Medicaid. I started filling out the paperwork a few weeks back, but hadn't sent it in yet and wasn't sure I was doing it right. So yesterday, I found a lady to help me with it at our Muskegon Family Care Center. From there I went to the WIC office.
Everyone keeps telling me that these programs are there for people like me -working class that can't quite make it on their own. I know this...in my head. But yesterday was sooo hard for me - I called Corey when I was finished with everything and just started crying. Why was it so hard?
I think there's prejudice within social class. I always think of prejudice being racial, but this new experience has opened my eyes.
We talk about the poor in church all the time! Blessed are the poor. We even took some of the youth down to Mexico, a poverty-stricken area. Corey told us we needed to view the poor there as our masters and we their servants.
Most of us don't consider ourselves poor; at least not truly in the sense of the stereotype that comes to mind when we hear that word. I still don't at all consider myself poor - I'm not! I own a house, two cars, have money in the bank... But I find myself signing up for Medicaid and WIC - two things I've always thought were for the "poor." For "those other people." I realized yesterday that I have an "us, them" complex. I found I didn't want to be sitting in those places filling out any of those papers!
So I guess I'm learning something about myself - not something admirable either.:( God truly does have a purpose for everything, and I think right now he's humbling me and helping me to see that I need to change some of my thinking, attitude - my heart. Of course...what's new?!