My Little Love

My little love,

Absence must make the heart grow fonder! Some of my favorite moments with you are seeing you after we've been apart for awhile!

I absolutely love coming to get you from your crib in the morning when you've woken up happy and you are content to lay in your crib observing your room...or kicking the mess out of your mattress.:) You get soo excited when you see me!

I also love coming home from work at the end of the day! That first glimpse you have of me and your face breaks out in the biggest smile! And now you put your hands out and lean toward me. I could not feel more loved!

You bring me so much joy! I cannot imagine life without you!

As you continue to grow, you'll change, and I'll miss your looks of absolute adoration.(O.k., so maybe I'm just the food source, but I hope I'm more.:)) Hopefully you'll still be in love with your mama - just showing it in different ways.:)

I love you so much little love!

My Little Love

My Little Love,

Last night was very difficult for your mother. You have not been sleeping very well at night and I decided it was time to do something about it.
You woke up at 11p.m. and started crying. I had finally determined in my mind that I needed to do what was best for you no matter how difficult. I let you cry and periodically I'd go in and check on you and comfort you.
Your little arms reached up to me and my heart broke. You wanted me to pick you up, to hold you, comfort you. I wanted to too, in the worst of ways! I even cried with you.
But I started to realize last night that you will be better off if mommy has boundaries and if mommy is consistent. As much as I believe I'm showing my love to you by doing what you want me to do, I'm loving you more by doing what's best for YOU!
Tonight, we tried something new. You ate your rice cereal, played on the floor, got your pjs on and read a book. We said good night to daddy and then I laid you in your crib. You were quite happy and I stood there for a few minutes reassuring you of my love. Then I left.
Sweetheart, you only cried about 5 minutes and then you fell asleep.
My little love, you are my first and therefore, my experiment. I'm so sorry for all the things I will mess up! I'm so sorry I don't know what I'm doing! I'll try to do my best, because I love you more than anything!